So... when your girlfriend freaks out on your Facebook daily about how other girls, girls who are YOUR FRIENDS, comment your statuses, and your pictures (which is what friends do, by the way), and she calls them ALL things like "fat" "ugly" "bitches" "whores" "cunts", among other things, when she doesn't even know them... maybe its time to punch her in the face and realize she has been doing this for too fucking long, and that she's a controlling, malicious bitch who is only there to make you miserable, and to isolate you from people who care. Just saying.
I miss my fucking best friend. You used to talk to me and tell me everything. You used to come and visit me and Colby, and we would have an amazing time. Ever since you started dating her, you won't talk to ANYONE. Even your cousin has come to me to tell me you've changed because of her, and not for the better.
She is mean. She is malicious and is only out to hurt other people to help her feel better about herself. And those friends of hers are no better.
Remember when they attacked me for no reason? Because she was jealous?
You didn't do anything, you just sat back and watched.
You wouldn't answer my calls or texts, you completely took her side on a battle that she created in her head.
What has she done to you?
Fuck man...
October 12, 2010
October 2, 2010
R.I.P. Greg Giraldo. =(
On September 25, 2010, Greg Giraldo overdosed on prescription medication. After he failed to appear for a scheduled performance at the Stress Factory, police officers found him in his hotel room at the Hyatt hotel in New Brunswick, New Jersey, and rushed him to Robert Wood Johnson University Hospital in that town. It was reported that he had been in a coma for five days when his family decided to remove him from life support. He died on September 29, 2010."Giraldo performed regularly at the Comedy Cellar in Manhattan. Giraldo was a regular panelist on Tough Crowd with Colin Quinn. Additionally, he was the star of the short-lived Common Law, and also starred in several pilots, including The Greg Giraldo Show and Gone Hollywood for Comedy Central. The New York Times has praised Giraldo as 'a talented comedian with a winning personality.' In 2004, he was featured in the spoken-word Lazyboy song, 'Underwear Goes Inside the Pants.'
Giraldo performed more than a dozen times on The Late Show with David Letterman and Late Night with Conan O'Brien, and appeared regularly on The Howard Stern Show. He has also appeared as a member of the panel in the NBC show The Marriage Ref. He had two half-hour specials on Comedy Central Presents, wrote segments for Last Call with Carson Daly, and Giraldo was a panelist on Comedy Central's 100 Greatest Stand-ups of All Time special.
Giraldo said on Late Night with Conan O'Brien on July 7, 2005, that he had quit drinking alcohol. His series Friday Night Stand-Up with Greg Giraldo began on Comedy Central in late 2005 and ran until 2006. His CD Good Day to Cross a River was released 2006 on Comedy Central Records.
Giraldo appeared in Comedy Central's annual roasts, roasting Chevy Chase, Pam Anderson, William Shatner, Jeff Foxworthy, Flavor Flav, Bob Saget, Joan Rivers, Larry the Cable Guy, and David Hasselhoff, as well as the TBS roast of Cheech & Chong.
In 2008, Giraldo appeared in venues across the United States as the headlining act of the Indecision '08 Tour, produced by Comedy Central.
Giraldo was a regular on Comedy Central's television series Lewis Black's Root of All Evil. Giraldo was one of the Advocates lobbying for their side to be considered the 'root of all evil'. He won in two of his nine appearances.
Giraldo also served as a judge during season seven of the NBC reality competition show Last Comic Standing." (Wikipedia)
=( R.I.P. man, you will be missed...
You will always be one of my favorites, and will be remember for your comedic genius.
J
October 1, 2010
September 24, 2010
Awful Parents at Target Spotted!
So, today while I was working, there was this lady, she was super ghetto, and she came in with her 12 kids and her sister, and they were all barefoot and screaming and running around and tearing clothes off the racks and she was completely ignoring them. ...The oldest was like, 200 pounds and she was like 12 years old, and she was riding around in one of the Target vehicles that handicapped people are supposed to use.
And I was wheeling around my clothes rack trying to put clothes away and a bunch of her kids came running at me and starting shaking and climbing on my rack while I WAS STILL MOVING IT!
So I told them to get off, and I said it nicely, and she comes over and says "EXCUSE ME who do you think you are talking to my kids like that?!" And I ignored her and kept working, then she says to her sister "That bitch has some nerve who the fuck does she think she is?" and I kept ignoring her, and I should have called security because 1) her kids were not wearing shoes and at least one of them had no shirt on 2) they were being completely unruly and destroying the clothes racks 3) she got in my face for absolutely no reason.
But I left her alone, and her fat little kid in the vehicle starts following me around EVERYWHERE just being obnoxious, and after about 15 minutes she eventually went the fuck away. And later her sister comes up to me and says I shouldn't listen to her sister, because she just had a miscarriage.
I'm like wtf does that have to do with her being a horrible parent and an ignorant bitch? She already has 12 fucking kids she can't take care of, does she really need more?
Ugh. I just can't believe how these people can be such awful fucking parents and get away with it. Her and her barefoot little demons shouldn't even have been allowed in the store! GAH!
I love my job. I just hate people in this country.
That woman... I was actually debating punching her and her fat daughter in the face. Losing my job and going to jail might have been worth it.
Meh.
And I was wheeling around my clothes rack trying to put clothes away and a bunch of her kids came running at me and starting shaking and climbing on my rack while I WAS STILL MOVING IT!
So I told them to get off, and I said it nicely, and she comes over and says "EXCUSE ME who do you think you are talking to my kids like that?!" And I ignored her and kept working, then she says to her sister "That bitch has some nerve who the fuck does she think she is?" and I kept ignoring her, and I should have called security because 1) her kids were not wearing shoes and at least one of them had no shirt on 2) they were being completely unruly and destroying the clothes racks 3) she got in my face for absolutely no reason.
But I left her alone, and her fat little kid in the vehicle starts following me around EVERYWHERE just being obnoxious, and after about 15 minutes she eventually went the fuck away. And later her sister comes up to me and says I shouldn't listen to her sister, because she just had a miscarriage.
I'm like wtf does that have to do with her being a horrible parent and an ignorant bitch? She already has 12 fucking kids she can't take care of, does she really need more?
Ugh. I just can't believe how these people can be such awful fucking parents and get away with it. Her and her barefoot little demons shouldn't even have been allowed in the store! GAH!
I love my job. I just hate people in this country.
That woman... I was actually debating punching her and her fat daughter in the face. Losing my job and going to jail might have been worth it.
Meh.
September 23, 2010
Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows.
Every time I hear about the new and FINAL Harry Potter movie(s), I get chills. Mostly, because the 7th book was my favorite, and it just brought out so much emotion from everyone who read it. I won't give anything away of course, because I'm sure there are still people who haven't read it who plan to before part 1 of the movie is released but... I know it will have an incredible impact on me, for sure.
The first of the Harry Potter series came out when I was 11 years old, in the sixth grade. The same age as young Harry Potter. I read the first book in my English class, and every year after that while I was in middle school, when a new book was released, we would read it in class. Obviously not in high school.
The series was made for my generation, kids MY age. I could relate to the characters in the story, they became a big part of my life, and they still are. I've read ever book and seen every movie half a dozen times, I even did some hardcore nerdy fan fictions back in the day.
With the release of the final movie(s) just on the horizon I find myself... feeling emotional about the series officially coming to an end. The seventh book was released back in 2007, but that doesn't mean it was over then. The movies added a whole new level, a whole new depth to this already incredible series, allowing myself and my fellow fanatics to feel more... like we were a part of that world.
And now its ending.
Sure, J.K. will probably come out with other books, but could they ever possibly compare? Never.
I don't know... every trailer I see for the new movie, it just... sends a range of insane emotions through me.
Excitement.
Sadness.
Anger.
Sorrow.
I know what to expect, but I don't know how it will impact me once I see it on the big screen. I know I'll cry like a child, haha.
=)
Well, good night.
J
The first of the Harry Potter series came out when I was 11 years old, in the sixth grade. The same age as young Harry Potter. I read the first book in my English class, and every year after that while I was in middle school, when a new book was released, we would read it in class. Obviously not in high school.
The series was made for my generation, kids MY age. I could relate to the characters in the story, they became a big part of my life, and they still are. I've read ever book and seen every movie half a dozen times, I even did some hardcore nerdy fan fictions back in the day.
With the release of the final movie(s) just on the horizon I find myself... feeling emotional about the series officially coming to an end. The seventh book was released back in 2007, but that doesn't mean it was over then. The movies added a whole new level, a whole new depth to this already incredible series, allowing myself and my fellow fanatics to feel more... like we were a part of that world.
And now its ending.
Sure, J.K. will probably come out with other books, but could they ever possibly compare? Never.
I don't know... every trailer I see for the new movie, it just... sends a range of insane emotions through me.
Excitement.
Sadness.
Anger.
Sorrow.
I know what to expect, but I don't know how it will impact me once I see it on the big screen. I know I'll cry like a child, haha.
=)
Well, good night.
J
September 2, 2010
August 25, 2010
No Sleep. Again.
Fell asleep around 3.
Woke up whenever Colby came to bed (5? or 6?).
Stayed awake for a while.
Woke up at 7:30 with a knee in my side, an elbow in my neck, my head and my left leg off the bed, and my back in searing pain.
Guess I'll just sleep on the couch for the rest of my life?
Ugh... to the couch!
Woke up whenever Colby came to bed (5? or 6?).
Stayed awake for a while.
Woke up at 7:30 with a knee in my side, an elbow in my neck, my head and my left leg off the bed, and my back in searing pain.
Guess I'll just sleep on the couch for the rest of my life?
Ugh... to the couch!
August 23, 2010
Basically.
I'm done with pathetic high school drama.
I'm not going to attempt to be friends with people I don't want to be friends with, but because someone I thought I was close to asks me.
You aren't worth my time or my respect, and that's that.
Its sad that I had to lose someone in all of this, but apparently we weren't that close to begin with, or he wouldn't had spread lies and garbage about me.
I'm 21.
Not 16.
I don't need to take this crap.
Changing all my privacy settings, deleting some people, and moving on with my life.
Again. Like some people apparently can't.
Oh well, it happens.
J
I'm not going to attempt to be friends with people I don't want to be friends with, but because someone I thought I was close to asks me.
You aren't worth my time or my respect, and that's that.
Its sad that I had to lose someone in all of this, but apparently we weren't that close to begin with, or he wouldn't had spread lies and garbage about me.
I'm 21.
Not 16.
I don't need to take this crap.
Changing all my privacy settings, deleting some people, and moving on with my life.
Again. Like some people apparently can't.
Oh well, it happens.
J
August 22, 2010
Lawl, U Mad Brah?!
I play WoW way too much.
I've wasted so much time, energy, and money on this game.
It has allowed me to meet some of the most amazing people this world has to offer, and has given me an escape from the pain that the real world can bring.
But what have I gotten out of it?
I've become more bitter, and have a shorter fuse.
I now believe that there really are very few good people in this world.
The rest of them are malicious... and just plain moronic.
I'm turning into a troll, and I love it.
Its really a love/hate thing.
I have started taking pleasure in the fact that I can successfully mentally abuse people who piss me off... gives me an adrenaline rush.
I would never do that to people I care about.
These brats I come across aren't worth caring about.
Players aren't even human anymore, they are just machines.
Machines who can't spell or think logically.
There are so many people who shouldn't be breeding in this world.
Blah.
J
I've wasted so much time, energy, and money on this game.
It has allowed me to meet some of the most amazing people this world has to offer, and has given me an escape from the pain that the real world can bring.
But what have I gotten out of it?
I've become more bitter, and have a shorter fuse.
I now believe that there really are very few good people in this world.
The rest of them are malicious... and just plain moronic.
I'm turning into a troll, and I love it.
Its really a love/hate thing.
I have started taking pleasure in the fact that I can successfully mentally abuse people who piss me off... gives me an adrenaline rush.
I would never do that to people I care about.
These brats I come across aren't worth caring about.
Players aren't even human anymore, they are just machines.
Machines who can't spell or think logically.
There are so many people who shouldn't be breeding in this world.
Blah.
J
August 19, 2010
Sleepless.
Every time I go to sleep, its like I'm entering a Mortal Kombat game. Elbow, elbow, knee, kick, knee, knee, elbow, kick... FINISH HER!
My boyfriend can be incredibly inconsiderate.
I like to go to bed any time between 10:30pm and 2:00am, and he's the same way. When we both worked at McDonalds, we went to bed at the same time every night.
Even when he was still working and needed to go to bed early, I would drop whatever I was doing and go to bed too, because I didn't want to wake him up with music or noise, and because I knew that I'd wake him up when I went to bed later.
But now that he's jobless and I'm not, he likes to stay up until 6:00am EVERY day, talking in vent, play WoW, and just being annoyingly loud, despite my protests. Its bad enough I have to sleep alone while all theses other people get to be with him (we see each other barely as it is anymore), but then he keeps me up by being loud.
AND when he finally comes yo bed at 6:00 in the fucking morning, he practically belly flops into bed. If I wasn't already awake by him stomping around the house, this surely does the trick. And he always seems to want to TALK once he sees I'm awake.
And then the games begin!
He falls asleep instantly, and I'm not uncomfortable, or hot, or something.
Kick, knee, knee, elbow, shove, kick, knee... you get the picture.
All him. Taking up 80% of the bed.
He's pushed me off a dozen times too.
And of course, not wanting to disturb him, I either trudge out to the couch, defeated... or just go to the other end of the bed.
And for some reason, that makes HIM angry?
I don't know what to do anymore... I just want to get some damn SLEEP!
Ugh.
My boyfriend can be incredibly inconsiderate.
I like to go to bed any time between 10:30pm and 2:00am, and he's the same way. When we both worked at McDonalds, we went to bed at the same time every night.
Even when he was still working and needed to go to bed early, I would drop whatever I was doing and go to bed too, because I didn't want to wake him up with music or noise, and because I knew that I'd wake him up when I went to bed later.
But now that he's jobless and I'm not, he likes to stay up until 6:00am EVERY day, talking in vent, play WoW, and just being annoyingly loud, despite my protests. Its bad enough I have to sleep alone while all theses other people get to be with him (we see each other barely as it is anymore), but then he keeps me up by being loud.
AND when he finally comes yo bed at 6:00 in the fucking morning, he practically belly flops into bed. If I wasn't already awake by him stomping around the house, this surely does the trick. And he always seems to want to TALK once he sees I'm awake.
And then the games begin!
He falls asleep instantly, and I'm not uncomfortable, or hot, or something.
Kick, knee, knee, elbow, shove, kick, knee... you get the picture.
All him. Taking up 80% of the bed.
He's pushed me off a dozen times too.
And of course, not wanting to disturb him, I either trudge out to the couch, defeated... or just go to the other end of the bed.
And for some reason, that makes HIM angry?
I don't know what to do anymore... I just want to get some damn SLEEP!
Ugh.
August 18, 2010
June 23, 2010
Overwhelmed.
What if?
What if I had never gone to Missouri that Summer, what if I had never even applied to Memorial University?
What if I had just stayed in Maine and went to a local school with the people I thought didn't care about me?
What if I had focused more on my future, instead of my own insecurities?
What if I hadn't fucked up?
I love Colby, yet he drives me insane.
I can go from blissful to infuriated in an instant, and it hurts.
I'm happy to be on my own, but its so damn hard.
I work 40 hours a week, only to have not a single penny left after I pay rent and bills, NOT ONE FUCKING PENNY to put aside for my future.
I'll never move up or gain anything from working at McDonalds, but I can't find anything else.
I can't drive, I had my permit once, but then I moved and never got back to it.
I've made so many stupid decisions in the last three years, and I have so many regrets... like not learning to drive.
Everything would be so much fucking better if I had just sucked up my fear and learned, got off my lazy ass and into the car.
I hate myself, I hate my life, I've become bitter and angry at everyone, when I used to be so... happy, so loving.
Every decision I've made has shaped my life into what it is... I'm miserable.
I don't know what to do... I'm doing bad things to take my mind off the pain... I don't know how much longer I can keep this up.
Overwhelmed.
Its killing me...
J
What if I had never gone to Missouri that Summer, what if I had never even applied to Memorial University?
What if I had just stayed in Maine and went to a local school with the people I thought didn't care about me?
What if I had focused more on my future, instead of my own insecurities?
What if I hadn't fucked up?
I love Colby, yet he drives me insane.
I can go from blissful to infuriated in an instant, and it hurts.
I'm happy to be on my own, but its so damn hard.
I work 40 hours a week, only to have not a single penny left after I pay rent and bills, NOT ONE FUCKING PENNY to put aside for my future.
I'll never move up or gain anything from working at McDonalds, but I can't find anything else.
I can't drive, I had my permit once, but then I moved and never got back to it.
I've made so many stupid decisions in the last three years, and I have so many regrets... like not learning to drive.
Everything would be so much fucking better if I had just sucked up my fear and learned, got off my lazy ass and into the car.
I hate myself, I hate my life, I've become bitter and angry at everyone, when I used to be so... happy, so loving.
Every decision I've made has shaped my life into what it is... I'm miserable.
I don't know what to do... I'm doing bad things to take my mind off the pain... I don't know how much longer I can keep this up.
Overwhelmed.
Its killing me...
J
June 17, 2010
Wow.
My 12 year old sister is in a mental institute.
She has BPD and cuts herself.
She keyed her mom's brand new van and ran away.
My 14 year old sister hears voices.
And talks to them.
Everyone is in therapy.
I'm pissed off.
She has BPD and cuts herself.
She keyed her mom's brand new van and ran away.
My 14 year old sister hears voices.
And talks to them.
Everyone is in therapy.
I'm pissed off.
June 16, 2010
I Want to Kill My Neighbors.
My neighbors have been complaining about us for the last month or so to our property owners, even though they never once complained to us about anything. According to a letter we got in the mail they have received numerous complaints about EXTREMELY loud music and people coming and going at all hours of the night... We have to be up for work between 4 and 5 am EVERT damn day, we go to bed before 9-10 almost every night, and we hardly ever have people over.
AND whenever we do listen to music, we have our headsets on! Now on the other hand the TWO apartments below us have parties every other night, the one directly below us has a god damn band that is always playing, and then not to mention all the cars parked in the street at any given time of day playing loud rap music with a bunch of people gathered around, and its all being pinned on us?!
They are saying we are breaking our lease agreement and that this is a warning but it can lead to eviction, so I'm calling today to raise some hell and set them straight, then I might go talk to my neighbors as well because I know who it is who is bitching and I will NOT take the blame for this shit.
That is all.
AND whenever we do listen to music, we have our headsets on! Now on the other hand the TWO apartments below us have parties every other night, the one directly below us has a god damn band that is always playing, and then not to mention all the cars parked in the street at any given time of day playing loud rap music with a bunch of people gathered around, and its all being pinned on us?!
They are saying we are breaking our lease agreement and that this is a warning but it can lead to eviction, so I'm calling today to raise some hell and set them straight, then I might go talk to my neighbors as well because I know who it is who is bitching and I will NOT take the blame for this shit.
That is all.
June 9, 2010
My Toad.
There was a baby toad hopping outside my window in drive-thru today, I was afraid it was going to get hit so I ran outside, picked him up, and put him in some grass nearby. Whether he lives for two more hours or two more years, I'm happy about what I did, even if everyone made fun of me.
June 6, 2010
June 6, 2010 ~ Dream.
It is the year 2013; I wake up in my apartment and everything is normal, I can hear people outside talking and cars driving, just a regular day. I get ready for work and I leave.
I work in a very large office building, but the floor I work on seems very small, there are small 4 offices, a lobby, a small kitchen/break room, and a bathroom. I work with 2 other woman and one man and I say hello to each of them as I come in like i do every day, but I notice that none of them respond. I don't really think anything of it and I sit down in my office and just begin typing away at my work.
It goes by pretty mindlessly, just me typing and looking at the clock, eventually I decide to go on break. Apparently I forgot my lunch so I go into the office next to mine, Jenna's, and ask her if she wants to go out for lunch. She doesn't respond. I get a little ticked and ask her what the hell is going on with people in the office today, no one is chatting in the break room, its completely silent, not even a phone call. She still doesn't respond. I turn on my heels and go across the hall to Brennan's office, I demand to know why they are all pulling this practical joke on me, telling them that is it unprofessional and cruel.
Brennan turns in his chair slowly to grab a file off of the table next to him, he turns his head towards me and says in an overly fake, cheerful tone, "Good morning Janise!" then turns back to his computer and continues his work. Something in his face, his eyes and smile, it was almost plastic, too unrealistic. Completely creeped out I leave the building and take a look around me.
Everything is too... nice. The sky is a perfect shade of blue, no clouds, and I notice the sun is in the exact position as when I woke up, five hours earlier. I begin to walk down the sidewalk noticing that everyone is smiling, everyone is clean and dressed sharply, everyone is happy. I see no garbage on the streets, not even in the trash cans! No homeless, no animals... just incredibly happy people all standing around. Doing. Nothing.
I run to my apartment, everything seems to be swirling around me, mocking me with its eerie perfection. I turn on my computer and go to Google, there is no news. Yahoo is the same, no news, no email, no stories or music of any kind. I turn on my MP3 player and it is blank, nothing in it. Turn on the radio station, no sound, no music, nothing.
I try to think of my friends, SOMEONE has to know what is going on. I grab my address book and sneak a glimpse at the newspaper underneath it, I hadn't seen any newspaper stands in the streets, this paper should have been from yesterday as I get one every morning. The date says "June 17th" but my computer says "June 23rd" and I panic. Where did those days go? What the hell happened?!
I flip through my address book and find no names. Not one.
I scream in frustration and leave my apartment, it feels like everyone is staring at me, can no one see what's going on? Is it only me? I begin to cry as I stumble through the street ready to jump in front of the next car going exactly the speed limit before a hand reaches out and grabs me, pulling me into darkness. I'm suddenly in a parking garage looking into the face of a girl my age who also seems panicked.
"Tell me your full name and when you were born!" She demands shaking me, "TELL ME NOW OR I'LL SHOOT YOU!"
I cry, its all I can do, no words come out. Her face changes and she releases me, leaving one hand on my shoulder. She tells me she is relieved that I'm not "one of them". I'm confused.
She explains to me that we are no longer on earth, that a handful of chosen human beings (I later found out that this number was 500 exactly) were shipped to another planet for being different, for being dangerous. DANGEROUS?! There was nothing dangerous about me, or this girl. She explained that "they" were androids. Thoughtless, emotionless androids who were there to monitor us, without us catching on to what happened.
WHAT HAPPENED?!
I was confused, full of questions, terrified. The girl, her name is Selena, led me to a house, there were 6 other people in the house, I can not remember all of their names. All of them around the same age as us, one other girl and five guys. They all look tired, normal. I scream as I see a dead body in the center of the room, twisted and mangled, bleeding. Bleeding a sickly acid green. An android.
They explain to me that some of the androids are not completely mindless, and can blend in with humans, one of the males, a very tall red headed man (his name is Lex) walks over to me with a knife in his hand.
"Lets see which you really are."
Selena stops him, assuring him I am human, not machine... or whatever these things are. Lex glares at me and then shrugs his shoulders and returns to his seat.
Things progress slowly, we all learn the streets, learn which places have the most intelligent androids and how to avoid them, we become foragers, thieves, just trying to survive in a world where nothing makes sense. I'm still terrified and confused. In the second week, the third girl in the group (Amanda) kills herself, we found her hanging from a rafter. And later that week two of the men went off on their own and never came back.
The only ones left were myself, Lex, Selena, Jack, the youngest of us all, 16. He and I become close, he is very emotional, just as afraid as I am. Selena and Jack seem almost too calm, too collected, amongst all this chaos. Slowly our "world" starts to change. The outside starts to look post Apocalyptic, buildings begin to crumble and age for no reason, the sky turns brown and gray, we don't see the sun anymore. Everything is old and decaying, the androids still patrol like every day citizens in their business suits and smiles.
Lex goes missing in the 5th week after going out to "hunt" and we go out to find him, he is the biggest and strongest of us all, he protects us, we can't possibly survive without him. We never find him.
We decide to leave the city, to see what the world outside of our decaying city has turned to. We return to the parking garage, it is the gateway to the outside world. A black SUV swerves and almost hits us, Selena screams for us to run but it is too late, bullets rain from every direction, I grab Jack and crawl beneath a nearby truck, but Selena is killed, she is lying in a pool of her own blood about 10 fet away, her head is turned and her eyes are open, staring at us beneath the truck.
Crying, we both listen as men's voices holler out for us, telling us we are safe now, protected, and that the humans can't harm us anymore. Humans? Aren't we the humans? The leave after what seems like hours, they did not even try to look for us. We get up in silence and leave the garage, we walk out into an open field, at the edge of the field is a massive cliff with an ocean at the bottom, and across from us is a giant island plateau with a city at its center.
There are monsters along the cliffs, hideous disfigured things that look almost human, but melted, every feature distorted, metal and plastic bits sticking out everywhere. Jack and I find a way around them and are next to a tree, there is a strange thick metal chain sticking out of the ground, I tug it and the air is filled with grinding and churning noises, the ground shakes but the "guards" don't seem to notice. A section of colorful red bridge breaks free from the cliff and stretches out towards the city. We cautiously walk to the end of the bridge where we find another chain, I pull it and it completes the bridge. As we walk onto the plateau Jack stumbles, he scrapes his palms on the ground and terror fills his eyes.
His blood is green, a strange bright shade. He looks up at me and tears fill my eyes. Jack. An android, this whole time... how can that be possible? His sobs snap me back to reality, before I can react he is holding a gun to his head, and he pulls the trigger and falls into the ocean below.
Screaming his name I drop to my knees, the world is crumbling and melting around me, I can see my old city in the distance surrounded by a brown cloud, dead.
I get up and wipe my hands on my shirt, a mix of green blood and dirt. Jack's blood. Sobbing I stumble to the city in the distance, it is almost futuristic, it seems to shine with a chrome color, very bright. Too bright. Light fills the air and everything around me turns white, I get dizzy and I can hear my ears ringing. Not ringing... buzzing? My head starts to pound and I feel... calm.
I look down at my hands, there is fresh blood on them. My nose is bleeding, I am deaf now, no more ringing, no more wind, no ocean.
My nose is bleeding. My nose is bleeding green.
I'm an android.
And I'm dying.
I lie on the ground and stare up at the motionless, cloudless sky and I wait. The dark brown clouds are getting closer, the world is dying.
I work in a very large office building, but the floor I work on seems very small, there are small 4 offices, a lobby, a small kitchen/break room, and a bathroom. I work with 2 other woman and one man and I say hello to each of them as I come in like i do every day, but I notice that none of them respond. I don't really think anything of it and I sit down in my office and just begin typing away at my work.
It goes by pretty mindlessly, just me typing and looking at the clock, eventually I decide to go on break. Apparently I forgot my lunch so I go into the office next to mine, Jenna's, and ask her if she wants to go out for lunch. She doesn't respond. I get a little ticked and ask her what the hell is going on with people in the office today, no one is chatting in the break room, its completely silent, not even a phone call. She still doesn't respond. I turn on my heels and go across the hall to Brennan's office, I demand to know why they are all pulling this practical joke on me, telling them that is it unprofessional and cruel.
Brennan turns in his chair slowly to grab a file off of the table next to him, he turns his head towards me and says in an overly fake, cheerful tone, "Good morning Janise!" then turns back to his computer and continues his work. Something in his face, his eyes and smile, it was almost plastic, too unrealistic. Completely creeped out I leave the building and take a look around me.
Everything is too... nice. The sky is a perfect shade of blue, no clouds, and I notice the sun is in the exact position as when I woke up, five hours earlier. I begin to walk down the sidewalk noticing that everyone is smiling, everyone is clean and dressed sharply, everyone is happy. I see no garbage on the streets, not even in the trash cans! No homeless, no animals... just incredibly happy people all standing around. Doing. Nothing.
I run to my apartment, everything seems to be swirling around me, mocking me with its eerie perfection. I turn on my computer and go to Google, there is no news. Yahoo is the same, no news, no email, no stories or music of any kind. I turn on my MP3 player and it is blank, nothing in it. Turn on the radio station, no sound, no music, nothing.
I try to think of my friends, SOMEONE has to know what is going on. I grab my address book and sneak a glimpse at the newspaper underneath it, I hadn't seen any newspaper stands in the streets, this paper should have been from yesterday as I get one every morning. The date says "June 17th" but my computer says "June 23rd" and I panic. Where did those days go? What the hell happened?!
I flip through my address book and find no names. Not one.
I scream in frustration and leave my apartment, it feels like everyone is staring at me, can no one see what's going on? Is it only me? I begin to cry as I stumble through the street ready to jump in front of the next car going exactly the speed limit before a hand reaches out and grabs me, pulling me into darkness. I'm suddenly in a parking garage looking into the face of a girl my age who also seems panicked.
"Tell me your full name and when you were born!" She demands shaking me, "TELL ME NOW OR I'LL SHOOT YOU!"
I cry, its all I can do, no words come out. Her face changes and she releases me, leaving one hand on my shoulder. She tells me she is relieved that I'm not "one of them". I'm confused.
She explains to me that we are no longer on earth, that a handful of chosen human beings (I later found out that this number was 500 exactly) were shipped to another planet for being different, for being dangerous. DANGEROUS?! There was nothing dangerous about me, or this girl. She explained that "they" were androids. Thoughtless, emotionless androids who were there to monitor us, without us catching on to what happened.
WHAT HAPPENED?!
I was confused, full of questions, terrified. The girl, her name is Selena, led me to a house, there were 6 other people in the house, I can not remember all of their names. All of them around the same age as us, one other girl and five guys. They all look tired, normal. I scream as I see a dead body in the center of the room, twisted and mangled, bleeding. Bleeding a sickly acid green. An android.
They explain to me that some of the androids are not completely mindless, and can blend in with humans, one of the males, a very tall red headed man (his name is Lex) walks over to me with a knife in his hand.
"Lets see which you really are."
Selena stops him, assuring him I am human, not machine... or whatever these things are. Lex glares at me and then shrugs his shoulders and returns to his seat.
Things progress slowly, we all learn the streets, learn which places have the most intelligent androids and how to avoid them, we become foragers, thieves, just trying to survive in a world where nothing makes sense. I'm still terrified and confused. In the second week, the third girl in the group (Amanda) kills herself, we found her hanging from a rafter. And later that week two of the men went off on their own and never came back.
The only ones left were myself, Lex, Selena, Jack, the youngest of us all, 16. He and I become close, he is very emotional, just as afraid as I am. Selena and Jack seem almost too calm, too collected, amongst all this chaos. Slowly our "world" starts to change. The outside starts to look post Apocalyptic, buildings begin to crumble and age for no reason, the sky turns brown and gray, we don't see the sun anymore. Everything is old and decaying, the androids still patrol like every day citizens in their business suits and smiles.
Lex goes missing in the 5th week after going out to "hunt" and we go out to find him, he is the biggest and strongest of us all, he protects us, we can't possibly survive without him. We never find him.
We decide to leave the city, to see what the world outside of our decaying city has turned to. We return to the parking garage, it is the gateway to the outside world. A black SUV swerves and almost hits us, Selena screams for us to run but it is too late, bullets rain from every direction, I grab Jack and crawl beneath a nearby truck, but Selena is killed, she is lying in a pool of her own blood about 10 fet away, her head is turned and her eyes are open, staring at us beneath the truck.
Crying, we both listen as men's voices holler out for us, telling us we are safe now, protected, and that the humans can't harm us anymore. Humans? Aren't we the humans? The leave after what seems like hours, they did not even try to look for us. We get up in silence and leave the garage, we walk out into an open field, at the edge of the field is a massive cliff with an ocean at the bottom, and across from us is a giant island plateau with a city at its center.
There are monsters along the cliffs, hideous disfigured things that look almost human, but melted, every feature distorted, metal and plastic bits sticking out everywhere. Jack and I find a way around them and are next to a tree, there is a strange thick metal chain sticking out of the ground, I tug it and the air is filled with grinding and churning noises, the ground shakes but the "guards" don't seem to notice. A section of colorful red bridge breaks free from the cliff and stretches out towards the city. We cautiously walk to the end of the bridge where we find another chain, I pull it and it completes the bridge. As we walk onto the plateau Jack stumbles, he scrapes his palms on the ground and terror fills his eyes.
His blood is green, a strange bright shade. He looks up at me and tears fill my eyes. Jack. An android, this whole time... how can that be possible? His sobs snap me back to reality, before I can react he is holding a gun to his head, and he pulls the trigger and falls into the ocean below.
Screaming his name I drop to my knees, the world is crumbling and melting around me, I can see my old city in the distance surrounded by a brown cloud, dead.
I get up and wipe my hands on my shirt, a mix of green blood and dirt. Jack's blood. Sobbing I stumble to the city in the distance, it is almost futuristic, it seems to shine with a chrome color, very bright. Too bright. Light fills the air and everything around me turns white, I get dizzy and I can hear my ears ringing. Not ringing... buzzing? My head starts to pound and I feel... calm.
I look down at my hands, there is fresh blood on them. My nose is bleeding, I am deaf now, no more ringing, no more wind, no ocean.
My nose is bleeding. My nose is bleeding green.
I'm an android.
And I'm dying.
I lie on the ground and stare up at the motionless, cloudless sky and I wait. The dark brown clouds are getting closer, the world is dying.
May 17, 2010
March 21, 2010
Dear G.I. Joe,
Your whole movie was completely predictable, and although action packed, very boring. The ending was terrible, and as for Scarlett... she was hot, but a terrible actress. Skin tight leather on BOTH females? Male director, very cliche... ugh.
March 10, 2010
Links Galore!
Here are my sites, please, check them out and befriend me!
My Formspring: http://www.formspring.me/SuperJangasm
My Twitter: http://twitter.com/SuperJangasm
Ask me if you want to know my MySpace/Facebook.
Lots of things going on lately.
Eric is visiting Colby and I in our NEW APARTMENT! We ordered pizza and are playing WoW, everything is nice.
It is late and hot, I'm tired.
J
My Formspring: http://www.formspring.me/SuperJangasm
My Twitter: http://twitter.com/SuperJangasm
Ask me if you want to know my MySpace/Facebook.
Lots of things going on lately.
Eric is visiting Colby and I in our NEW APARTMENT! We ordered pizza and are playing WoW, everything is nice.
It is late and hot, I'm tired.
J
February 28, 2010
I'm So In Love...
A lot of you will never experience what I have.
For those of you who have this, or had this... good for you.
Everyone deserves to be this happy.
Well... almost everyone.
You have to allow love to happen in order for people to love you.
Get it?
Colby James Blankenhagen, you are my whole world, you are everything to me.
I know I can be difficult, and I know I don't always show it, but you have changed my life and you have made me a better person. I love you.
Goodnight all.
~ Janise
For those of you who have this, or had this... good for you.
Everyone deserves to be this happy.
Well... almost everyone.
You have to allow love to happen in order for people to love you.
Get it?
Colby James Blankenhagen, you are my whole world, you are everything to me.I know I can be difficult, and I know I don't always show it, but you have changed my life and you have made me a better person. I love you.
Goodnight all.
~ Janise
February 27, 2010
Oh Hai.
One of my favorite insects.Watching House.
Episodes where kids are sick make me so upset.
Lots of stuff to do tomorrow.
J
Happy.
I'm happy.
I'm finally making friends and feeling like I belong.
People go out of their way to see me, compliment me, talk to me... it makes me feel special.
Jarvis invited me to his birthday dinner with a bunch of the other girls from work. Sure, I'll be the only white girl there, but it will be a good chance to get dolled up and spend some time with the managers and crew trainers I work with. Christina finally found out the sex of her baby, its another boy, haha. Sandi kept telling her it would be a girl, but she was wrong.
My friend Daniel is getting promoted to crew trainer, so it little Matthew L., my favorite Star Wars nerd. I'm happy for them, even if it means I'll have to take orders from more people YOUNGER than me... just means I'm a few paces closer to a promotion
I walked 6 miles today, went to Retro Gamers and got hit on by a bunch of little geeky dude who were buying old school games, I bought Super Smash Bros. I talked to the guy who was on the register today, and the guy who owns the place, Tony, they told me they should be getting Paper Mario and Zelda: Majora's Mask in a few days, so I gave them my number so they can call me (yeah, we're on awesome terms, I'm the best customer these guys get!).
Then I went into Fantasy Books, conveniently located next door, and bought a kick ass mini microbe of Swine Flu, the latest microbe from Thinkgeek. I asked the cashier guy if they were hiring yet, but they still have the same two employees they've had all year...
There were a bunch of little kiddies playing Yu-Gi-Oh in the next room in FB, it was pretty funny, there was this little 14 year old goth being all slutty acting like she knew how to play, being all ditzy... it brought up some goofy memories from old days. So yeah, I didn't even know people played those games anymore.
I'm gunna go eat with my lover, bye byes.
J
I'm finally making friends and feeling like I belong.
People go out of their way to see me, compliment me, talk to me... it makes me feel special.
Jarvis invited me to his birthday dinner with a bunch of the other girls from work. Sure, I'll be the only white girl there, but it will be a good chance to get dolled up and spend some time with the managers and crew trainers I work with. Christina finally found out the sex of her baby, its another boy, haha. Sandi kept telling her it would be a girl, but she was wrong.
My friend Daniel is getting promoted to crew trainer, so it little Matthew L., my favorite Star Wars nerd. I'm happy for them, even if it means I'll have to take orders from more people YOUNGER than me... just means I'm a few paces closer to a promotion
I walked 6 miles today, went to Retro Gamers and got hit on by a bunch of little geeky dude who were buying old school games, I bought Super Smash Bros. I talked to the guy who was on the register today, and the guy who owns the place, Tony, they told me they should be getting Paper Mario and Zelda: Majora's Mask in a few days, so I gave them my number so they can call me (yeah, we're on awesome terms, I'm the best customer these guys get!).
Then I went into Fantasy Books, conveniently located next door, and bought a kick ass mini microbe of Swine Flu, the latest microbe from Thinkgeek. I asked the cashier guy if they were hiring yet, but they still have the same two employees they've had all year...
There were a bunch of little kiddies playing Yu-Gi-Oh in the next room in FB, it was pretty funny, there was this little 14 year old goth being all slutty acting like she knew how to play, being all ditzy... it brought up some goofy memories from old days. So yeah, I didn't even know people played those games anymore.
I'm gunna go eat with my lover, bye byes.
J
February 25, 2010
Love.
Rupert Grint.
I would take him over anyone.
Red heads are incredibly sexy.
I do, and will always love this man.
Renting Cherrybomb this weekend.
Have a nice night.
J
February 24, 2010
Very Old Memories From High School.
This is Tory and myself in the park next to the Saco river, I've known her for years and I really do miss her, even if we grew really far apart when she got into her goth phase...
This is me and one of my closest friends throughout all of high school, Leesa. This is us head banging in the band room!
Wow... I miss these guys so much... Tory, Adara, Devin (he is behind me and Tory) and Herbie (he is taking the picture). I never liked that other girl though. Forgot her name.
Ashlee's 18th birthday party, one of the best band night I ever had. Also the first time I ever watched Pulp Fiction!
The first time I ever babysat my sister. Katie is actually in the backseat coming with me... I miss my eyebrow piercing. I had blue lips from a jaw breaker!
Desiree's first birthday party... I miss this little girl so much.
The always amazing Julien and George performing their talent for "Family and Friends Night" at Upward Bound, my first Summer... these two were my best friends, I miss them so much... they're both freaking geniuses.
Upward Bound field trip to a college fair... George took this picture.
amazing dress and robe I bought in China Town, Boston, first year in UB, while the seniors were all in New York.
The morning we got back from camping, first year in UB. This is me and the lovely Keisha... whose older brother was a pig.
Drunk DDR party at Caitie/Tory's house... 3 am... totally shwasted.
My favorite UB ladies in Central Park, the day of the 7th Harry Potter book release.
Self-explanatory... Barbara, myself, and Theoni outside BK! April is taking the picture!
My two favorite roommates, Codi and Kat, in front of the MTV building in Time Square!
3 gutter balls in a row...
Myself and the beautiful Codi on a boat going to Ellis Island!
One of my favorite pictures ever... Kat, Barbara, myself, and Codi at Ground Zero, with the statue that survived 9/11.
Me and Kevin on our way to work... man, I miss him SO much. Don't mind Sam in the background...
Myself and Barbara... I look incredibly tan and thin... ugh.
My baby boy Napkin... he's still at my house in Maine, I miss this little brat...Well... that's all.
Hope you enjoyed my memories.
J
February 22, 2010
Royo
This was painted by my favorite artist, Luis Royo.
This is my favorite painting by him.
My old friend Janice introduced me to him years ago, I miss her.
Every time I look at his paintings I think of her.
This is my favorite painting by him.
My old friend Janice introduced me to him years ago, I miss her.
Every time I look at his paintings I think of her.
February 21, 2010
69
69th blog.
Celebration I say!
About to take a shower, here's some eye candy.
Just kidding, not really eye candy.
I love this little beastie.
Celebration I say!
About to take a shower, here's some eye candy.
Just kidding, not really eye candy.
I love this little beastie.
Lists Lists Lists.
Things I need to do:
1) Finish doing the last 4 loads of laundry.
2) Pack my dresser and Colby's dresser.
3) Pack both of my suitcases and both of my duffel bags.
4) Take down the tree and pack the ornaments.
5) Round up all the little odds and ends that belong to us.
6) Pack a bunch of boxes with stuff.
7) Take MY gazelle back out to the garage and take it apart until we move.
8) Finish cleaning the upstairs.
9) Call Linda and Medeline on my break tomorrow to schedule the tour, even though it isn't necessary because I REALLY want this place.
10) Call off work for Tuesday/Wednesday to take the tour.
11) Finish paperwork.
12) Leave $300 for February's rent and $50 for utilities on the kitchen table (we aren't paying that bitch the bogus $200 she says we owe her).
13) Disconnect the cable and internet and tell Charter we are moving.
14) Change all mine/Colby's mailing address stuff for everything.
15) Call the IRS (or Eric's dad) and change my address.
16) Move out as fast as humanly possible with minimal attention and questions.
17) Set up basic essentials in the new apartment.
Basic Shopping List:
1) Litter box and litter
2) Cat food dish
3) Cat food
4) Kitchen trash can
5) Sponges and dish soap
6) Shower curtain
Expensive Shopping List:
1) Two couches (or big chairs)
2) Crappy computer chair
3) 5-piece kitchen table set
4) A few paintings and posters
5) TV stand
6) Couch pillows
7) Curtain rods and a few curtains
That's all I can think of, I have so much to do and I need it all done ASAP. Colby isn't helping, ever since he started playing WoW again he's just been sitting on his ass being lazy, ignoring me when I ask him for help. I don't care, at least this is all getting done and happening.
We can't spend ANY money this week, we need:
1) $70 for our application fee
2) At least $395 for the security deposit
3) $350 for this month's rent/utilities in this hell hole
4) $20-$40 for essentials for my cat
5) At least $50 for basic food stuff
So yeah... I might have to cash a few savings bonds and that check my grandmother gave me just to get by for this next month, but we can do it.
That is all, wish me luck.
J
1) Finish doing the last 4 loads of laundry.
2) Pack my dresser and Colby's dresser.
3) Pack both of my suitcases and both of my duffel bags.
4) Take down the tree and pack the ornaments.
5) Round up all the little odds and ends that belong to us.
6) Pack a bunch of boxes with stuff.
7) Take MY gazelle back out to the garage and take it apart until we move.
8) Finish cleaning the upstairs.
9) Call Linda and Medeline on my break tomorrow to schedule the tour, even though it isn't necessary because I REALLY want this place.
10) Call off work for Tuesday/Wednesday to take the tour.
11) Finish paperwork.
12) Leave $300 for February's rent and $50 for utilities on the kitchen table (we aren't paying that bitch the bogus $200 she says we owe her).
13) Disconnect the cable and internet and tell Charter we are moving.
14) Change all mine/Colby's mailing address stuff for everything.
15) Call the IRS (or Eric's dad) and change my address.
16) Move out as fast as humanly possible with minimal attention and questions.
17) Set up basic essentials in the new apartment.
Basic Shopping List:
1) Litter box and litter
2) Cat food dish
3) Cat food
4) Kitchen trash can
5) Sponges and dish soap
6) Shower curtain
Expensive Shopping List:
1) Two couches (or big chairs)
2) Crappy computer chair
3) 5-piece kitchen table set
4) A few paintings and posters
5) TV stand
6) Couch pillows
7) Curtain rods and a few curtains
That's all I can think of, I have so much to do and I need it all done ASAP. Colby isn't helping, ever since he started playing WoW again he's just been sitting on his ass being lazy, ignoring me when I ask him for help. I don't care, at least this is all getting done and happening.
We can't spend ANY money this week, we need:
1) $70 for our application fee
2) At least $395 for the security deposit
3) $350 for this month's rent/utilities in this hell hole
4) $20-$40 for essentials for my cat
5) At least $50 for basic food stuff
So yeah... I might have to cash a few savings bonds and that check my grandmother gave me just to get by for this next month, but we can do it.
That is all, wish me luck.
J
February 20, 2010
Moving Out.
Things are finally feeling... stable. Colby and I have narrowed down our choices to three very nice, cheap apartments in our town. all three are still available as of today, and all three will let you have pets, and DO NOT require a credit check. I haven't felt this happy in... I don't even know. One of the apartments even has a washer and dryer in the unit, and it is beautiful. I'm looking forward to finally being on my own, independent, decorating and customizing my own place... it feels good. I'm taking the Gazelle too, despite whatever Rebecca thinks, it is MINE and she still has no right to keep taking it without my permission.
Have I mentioned this? Rebecca and Steve like to hide all kinds of things in their room from Colby and I, as if we even want their crap. She hides the CAT FOOD in there, even though both our cats eat it... does she think I'm going to steal it and eat it? Weirdo. They also hide the toilet paper in their room, because apparently the whole downstairs belongs to them, despite us being here first. It bothers me. Sometimes when I get home from work, I have to pee. It would be nice to be able to wipe myself in my own damn bathroom and not worry about my crazy roommates hiding the toilet paper in their room.
Everything they hide from us, they steal ours. They steal our toilet paper from upstairs, they steal our laundry soap (we had to buy our own because they stole and hid the old one we OFFERED to share with them, because it was ours in the first place). Whatever, we'll be gone soon, and we will be happier.
I've been playing Legend of Zelda: Ocarina of Time lately... it is so weird how hard this game seems, especially when it seemed so EASY when I was eight years old! Next on my list, I need to find both Paper Mario and Majora's Mask... which I am really excited to play again, it was always one of my favorites... thinking about it, I'm not sure I ever completely beat it!
NCIS has been on all day since I shut off my N64, I love episodes that revolve around Gibbs' past, that talk about his first wife and his daughter... I also love episodes where you learn more about Ziva, she is such a unique woman. This show may very well be my new favorite, right next to Criminal Minds. Every character is just so... detailed. They all have their own unique personalities and lifestyles, and you get to learn so much about them on a personal level, as well as a professional one. Haha, listen to me talk as if they are real people... they play their characters well. Cote de Pablo... man, she is gorgeous!
I'm drinking my first soda in over a month, too lazy to go downstairs and get cranberry juice. I have this whole weekend off, and I need to clean, but I don't really want to. We are going to move out nicely. After we pay what we feel we owe to Raye, we are going to pack up everything we own, we are going to clean up whatever mess we have made in our living area, and then we are going to just going to leave without telling our roommates, or our landlady. And it will be done.
My computer keeps logging me off, I need to buy a new Vista disk. I used the same disk I used on my Velocity computer, which my ex stole - sorry... kept and then sold (he never sent me the money btw, just keeps lying to me telling me he did). Since someone is now using it somewhere in the world, I can't use my disk. So I need to dish out $120 to buy a new one. Ugh... not fun.
Blah. Ugh. BLAH!
I need to go to Walmart, but Colby is being SO lazy today.
Whatever, I suppose that is all.
Bye bye my dears.
J
Have I mentioned this? Rebecca and Steve like to hide all kinds of things in their room from Colby and I, as if we even want their crap. She hides the CAT FOOD in there, even though both our cats eat it... does she think I'm going to steal it and eat it? Weirdo. They also hide the toilet paper in their room, because apparently the whole downstairs belongs to them, despite us being here first. It bothers me. Sometimes when I get home from work, I have to pee. It would be nice to be able to wipe myself in my own damn bathroom and not worry about my crazy roommates hiding the toilet paper in their room.
Everything they hide from us, they steal ours. They steal our toilet paper from upstairs, they steal our laundry soap (we had to buy our own because they stole and hid the old one we OFFERED to share with them, because it was ours in the first place). Whatever, we'll be gone soon, and we will be happier.
I've been playing Legend of Zelda: Ocarina of Time lately... it is so weird how hard this game seems, especially when it seemed so EASY when I was eight years old! Next on my list, I need to find both Paper Mario and Majora's Mask... which I am really excited to play again, it was always one of my favorites... thinking about it, I'm not sure I ever completely beat it!
NCIS has been on all day since I shut off my N64, I love episodes that revolve around Gibbs' past, that talk about his first wife and his daughter... I also love episodes where you learn more about Ziva, she is such a unique woman. This show may very well be my new favorite, right next to Criminal Minds. Every character is just so... detailed. They all have their own unique personalities and lifestyles, and you get to learn so much about them on a personal level, as well as a professional one. Haha, listen to me talk as if they are real people... they play their characters well. Cote de Pablo... man, she is gorgeous!
I'm drinking my first soda in over a month, too lazy to go downstairs and get cranberry juice. I have this whole weekend off, and I need to clean, but I don't really want to. We are going to move out nicely. After we pay what we feel we owe to Raye, we are going to pack up everything we own, we are going to clean up whatever mess we have made in our living area, and then we are going to just going to leave without telling our roommates, or our landlady. And it will be done.
My computer keeps logging me off, I need to buy a new Vista disk. I used the same disk I used on my Velocity computer, which my ex stole - sorry... kept and then sold (he never sent me the money btw, just keeps lying to me telling me he did). Since someone is now using it somewhere in the world, I can't use my disk. So I need to dish out $120 to buy a new one. Ugh... not fun.
Blah. Ugh. BLAH!
I need to go to Walmart, but Colby is being SO lazy today.
Whatever, I suppose that is all.
Bye bye my dears.
J
February 19, 2010
LOL WOW!
So I found this on my Photobucket from last year at school, this video got me in tons of trouble because of something I said in it, and I got ratted out but never found out who it was, and then I got accused of all this crazy shit that I had nothing to do with... ugh. Whatever, they made me take it off MY blog... Canadian fuckers. But I don't go to that school anymore, so here it is again, because... I can! This is me going completely crazy after being locked up with only 3 other people on the WHOLE campus for two weeks, with no one to talk to... at all. And I was sick and feverish. Haha, don't mind my huge ghetto headset with its stupid bendy mic... I still have it, but Colby took it from me. Its ugly, I know.
Haha... I'm such a spaz.
Totally random.
I know the video isn't centered, and I know it cuts out at 5 minutes... but what can ya do? Photobucket is lame, as is Blogger. So... yup.
Okay, seriously... goodnight now.
J
Haha... I'm such a spaz.
Totally random.
I know the video isn't centered, and I know it cuts out at 5 minutes... but what can ya do? Photobucket is lame, as is Blogger. So... yup.
Okay, seriously... goodnight now.
J
Newest Addition!
Introducing the newest addition to our loving little family...
Meet Mira Bean! She's just a baby, but she's spunky and sweet. She's already fitting right in with my other girls.
I was gunna upload a video here but... it isn't working.
We've only had her for a few hours and she's already feeling the love from her new sisters. It is bed time for them now, they're all sleepy and adorable. A big pile of adorable!
I have work at 10:00... they have cut us by 20 hours. Fucked. Up.
Paychecks were $200 less than last time together.
Ugh... stupid job.
Night.
J
Meet Mira Bean! She's just a baby, but she's spunky and sweet. She's already fitting right in with my other girls.
I was gunna upload a video here but... it isn't working.
We've only had her for a few hours and she's already feeling the love from her new sisters. It is bed time for them now, they're all sleepy and adorable. A big pile of adorable!
I have work at 10:00... they have cut us by 20 hours. Fucked. Up.
Paychecks were $200 less than last time together.
Ugh... stupid job.
Night.
J
February 17, 2010
Hot Topic Wishlist...
Someday, I will have the money to buy all the nice clothes I've always dreamed of having... my favorite store is Hot Topic, I love absolutely everything in this store, and I would love to win a shopping spree there!
Cutest. Jacket. EVER!
You could seriously wear this jacket with ANYTHING, rockin'!
Ahh, this is too cute! And the model is freakin' adorable too!
I don't have the legs for minis, but this dress totally rocks!
These look SO comfy!!!
CUTE SKIRT!
GAH I love these boots SO much! Maybe with that dress??
You could totally wear these with any pair of jeans!
Can you say Helen Magnus shoes?! HELL yeah!
These are just hot... very hot. Cute with skinny jeans me thinks.
Well, that is all.
I'm going to PP to get on the pill tomorrow.
Dyeing my hair with blond dye this weekend, going for a brassy look.
Bye byes.
J
Cutest. Jacket. EVER!
You could seriously wear this jacket with ANYTHING, rockin'!
Ahh, this is too cute! And the model is freakin' adorable too!
I don't have the legs for minis, but this dress totally rocks!
These look SO comfy!!!
CUTE SKIRT!
GAH I love these boots SO much! Maybe with that dress??
You could totally wear these with any pair of jeans!
Can you say Helen Magnus shoes?! HELL yeah!
These are just hot... very hot. Cute with skinny jeans me thinks.Well, that is all.
I'm going to PP to get on the pill tomorrow.
Dyeing my hair with blond dye this weekend, going for a brassy look.
Bye byes.
J
February 12, 2010
I Love You, Banjo!
Banjo-Kazooie is making me so happy right now!
Tomorrow is my last day, then I have a day off.
Unfortunately I work 6-2 on Sunday, probably as prep.
Watching Jackass, it is making me cringe.
I really, REALLY need to pee!
Time for robot Chicken.
I found an earring on a table and it was really beautiful, I'm turning it into a necklace and sending it to my sister.
Miranda and Brianna changed their names to Jalynn and Jamie, respectively. Desiree's middle name was changed to Jade. The girls chose their own names, and they are stupid as hell. They had beautiful names before.
My 11 year old sister was caught in a threesome behind her school, she's been getting in tons of trouble lately, being a terror and just... unruly. Ugh, Amy and Sean are NOT prepared for these girls, especially with a severely autistic child already in their home. They were chosen by my grandmother because they are Jesus freaks, all bible and no fun. They only celebrate Christmas and Easter. On Halloween they shut off all the lights and lock the doors, they don't let the girls have any fun, and let me tell you, that is their favorite holiday.
Religion won't save these girls, religion doesn't save anyone. By pushing all these ridiculous and strict beliefs on them, they are just confusing them even more. They went most of their lives believing in nothing, and suddenly they are being forced into this religion that they want nothing to do with.
I hate people who push their religion on others.
But I digress... speaking of jewelry, I'm pretty sure one of my roommate's stole my favorite necklace Colby bought me, and a pair of earrings my mom gave me a few years ago. I left them on the shelf in the bathroom on top of my eyeglass case and they completely disappeared. It is pissing me off that they keep using and taking our stuff, and then they hide their toilet paper, laundry soap, and such things in their room. It is fucked up. They hide their stuff and use ours? So now I put our stuff upstairs.
Seriously. A week ago I bought a big thing of laundry soap, and it is 3/4 gone, and Colby and I have done maybe 4 loads of laundry. You do the math. Most of our dryer sheets are gone too, despite them having their own.
They drink our milk too, even when they have their own.
And they like to throw out our stuff when they THINK it has gone bad, even if it hasn't even reached the date on the package.
Whatever, we'll be out of here soon.
I'm really annoyed at a friend of mine, but I doubt they have noticed.
And if they have, I doubt they care.
I'm aggravated at a couple people actually, but they don't want to hear it.
I don't know why I call any of them my friends.
Sorry for the random post, not much to say really...
Got $50 from my grandmother today that she meant to send for Christmas, she is finally out of the hospital, she's in a rehab home type thing right now, she can't live on her own anymore, and she doesn't have much time left...
Anyways... goodnight.
J
February 10, 2010
Childhood?!
I've got money burning a hole in my pocket.
I bought an N64 today with all its fixings, a really cool controller, and Banjo-Kazooie! I'm going back in a few days to buy Super Smash Bros. and Banjo-Tooie. Had some fun playing tonight, ordering food with my love.
Some skanks are trying to get me down, I'm not letting them, because I know I'm better than them. It isn't vanity, its truth. And you know what, that's all that really matters. If they want to obsess and let my life affect them... well, that's just plain old pathetic. I'm living my own life, how about you losers live yours? Good deal!
I'm in love... its like it never fades, even when we are pissy at each other. I'm glad I'm passed that silly little high school age where I'd want to fuck anyone who gave me the time of day and called me pretty (unlike some people, I didn't do that, the opposite in fact). I've been feeling great about my personality later, especially when compared to others... I love that I'm a good person.
Weeelllll, my pizza and cheesy sticks are here.
Spending a nice night with the boyfriend.
Late shifts at work all week, icky!
Peace and love.
J
I bought an N64 today with all its fixings, a really cool controller, and Banjo-Kazooie! I'm going back in a few days to buy Super Smash Bros. and Banjo-Tooie. Had some fun playing tonight, ordering food with my love.
Some skanks are trying to get me down, I'm not letting them, because I know I'm better than them. It isn't vanity, its truth. And you know what, that's all that really matters. If they want to obsess and let my life affect them... well, that's just plain old pathetic. I'm living my own life, how about you losers live yours? Good deal!
I'm in love... its like it never fades, even when we are pissy at each other. I'm glad I'm passed that silly little high school age where I'd want to fuck anyone who gave me the time of day and called me pretty (unlike some people, I didn't do that, the opposite in fact). I've been feeling great about my personality later, especially when compared to others... I love that I'm a good person.
Weeelllll, my pizza and cheesy sticks are here.
Spending a nice night with the boyfriend.
Late shifts at work all week, icky!
Peace and love.
J
February 8, 2010
February 4, 2010
R.I.P. Mini Mouse...
I'm depressed right now, I want to cry but I can't.
Came home after a great day at work, and after getting paid, and we came upstairs to find my hamster cage lid off and across the room, the cage pushed back against the wall and everything in the cage torn apart... Mini Mouse, my youngest hamster, and my favorite, was missing. There is no way they can escape the 10 gallon tank alone, even with the lid off. We caught Socks, Rebecca's cat, sneaking around up here this morning... I'm 90% positive she killed my hamster.
Jade would never even attempt a stunt like that, she likes my hamsters. She's an indoor cat, she's attacked a few mice but we had to shove her towards them for her to do anything. Socks was an outdoor cat, she's a vicious little bitch... I don't know what to do. I always say I want to kill her... now I really do.
I can't just leave MB alone in her cage, she needs someone with her. I'll have to buy another hamster, but Mini Mouse was her sister...
Fuck...
J
February 2, 2010
Darren Shan.
Darren Shan is my hero.
I am completely in love with this dude, haha!
It would complete my life to meet him...
J
I am completely in love with this dude, haha!
It would complete my life to meet him...
J
Thinkgeek.com Merch!
http://www.thinkgeek.com/tshirts-apparel/womens/b9c7/action/213d219/
Oh hell yeah, I'm famous.
Hahaha.
Oh hell yeah, I'm famous.
Hahaha.
My Best Friend.
This is my best friend, Tyler.
He recently started dating this girl, Jenny, and I have never seen him this happy, ever. It makes me happy, and makes me think good things about the people in this world. He always talks to me about how amazing she is, and how much they click and how good they are together, and all of his sappy lovey talk is just refreshing to hear after all the bullshit he's been through.
They're hella cute together, aren't they? I'm so happy for them both.
Hope you all find something like this.
That would be nice.
Congratulations Tyler and Jenny!
J <3
February 1, 2010
3 Pounds.
3 pounds down.
37 more to go.
I can do it, I will do it.
I have to.
I can't live with myself anymore.
Hospital and bank today.
Getting a lot done.
I will do it.
J
37 more to go.
I can do it, I will do it.
I have to.
I can't live with myself anymore.
Hospital and bank today.
Getting a lot done.
I will do it.
J
January 31, 2010
New Diet.
Very strict eating... very little calories.
Aiming for 3 meals - less than 500 calories a day.
Probably unhealthy? Oh well.
Working out as well, very customized routine from a bunch of Denise Richards tapes, targeting all my "problem" areas.
I'm sore and feel great.
I'm hungry.
Cravings are the worst.
I have support though... and I am determined to look acceptable in my own eyes.
J
Aiming for 3 meals - less than 500 calories a day.
Probably unhealthy? Oh well.
Working out as well, very customized routine from a bunch of Denise Richards tapes, targeting all my "problem" areas.
I'm sore and feel great.
I'm hungry.
Cravings are the worst.
I have support though... and I am determined to look acceptable in my own eyes.
J
January 30, 2010
Wow.
What the hell did I ever see in you?
You're a conceited, self righteous, asshole.
I gave up my whole fucking life for you.
For us.
I'm tired of feeling bad about what happened.
I did it because I wasn't happy.
I was unhappy for a long time, but I was hanging on.
Hanging on to hope, hoping you'd act like you did when we first met.
When you actually cared, when you had a fucking heart.
Fuck you, seriously.
But fine, it is closure.
I never have to fucking talk to you again.
I never have to see your face.
I hope that blond bimbo you're banging gives you herpes.
I'm done.
I'm very angry, and very hurt.
Fucker.
You're a conceited, self righteous, asshole.
I gave up my whole fucking life for you.
For us.
I'm tired of feeling bad about what happened.
I did it because I wasn't happy.
I was unhappy for a long time, but I was hanging on.
Hanging on to hope, hoping you'd act like you did when we first met.
When you actually cared, when you had a fucking heart.
Fuck you, seriously.
But fine, it is closure.
I never have to fucking talk to you again.
I never have to see your face.
I hope that blond bimbo you're banging gives you herpes.
I'm done.
I'm very angry, and very hurt.
Fucker.
January 28, 2010
Huh.
Sex dreams about ex boyfriends are not cool.
They unnerve me, and I don't like that.
Matt still hasn't sent me my money, I don't think he plans to.
Whatever, I'm not going to chase him down.
I thought he was better than that, I guess 4 years of friendship was just a lie.
I was too blinded to see the real him.
I have to work this weekend, 6-2 both days, pretty gross.
Colby and I have been talking, about a lot of things. I think we've decided to just stay in our apartment, no matter how frustrating it is. We don't have the money right now to be putting down deposits on new apartments.
Another option is to move in with his aunt, I like her, but I don't want to.
I mean... we're 20 years old. His cousin Logan is in the military so he won't be home, but he has two much younger pain in the ass cousins.
You know, I could probably make some money babysitting though... who knows?
Or just babysit for free since she'd let me live upstairs.
I don't know.
I've been collecting toys for my little sister, the three girls are all officially adopted as of the 20th. Miranda changed her name, I don't know what it is.
Goodnight.
J
They unnerve me, and I don't like that.
Matt still hasn't sent me my money, I don't think he plans to.
Whatever, I'm not going to chase him down.
I thought he was better than that, I guess 4 years of friendship was just a lie.
I was too blinded to see the real him.
I have to work this weekend, 6-2 both days, pretty gross.
Colby and I have been talking, about a lot of things. I think we've decided to just stay in our apartment, no matter how frustrating it is. We don't have the money right now to be putting down deposits on new apartments.
Another option is to move in with his aunt, I like her, but I don't want to.
I mean... we're 20 years old. His cousin Logan is in the military so he won't be home, but he has two much younger pain in the ass cousins.
You know, I could probably make some money babysitting though... who knows?
Or just babysit for free since she'd let me live upstairs.
I don't know.
I've been collecting toys for my little sister, the three girls are all officially adopted as of the 20th. Miranda changed her name, I don't know what it is.
Goodnight.
J
January 24, 2010
Last Night...
I got 14 hours of sleep.
I my dreams consisted of the following:
1) A large volcano, dragons, prisoners in shackles and cages, torture, lava, and a demon lord who wanted to make me his queen after witnessing how I cared for his dragons, despite being a prisoner.
2) McDonalds turned into a luau restaurant on the beach, walls were made out of reeds and all that, sand floor, and I ended up being an hour late. Running around, like a normal day, hitting on Emily who was wearing a red bikini, my mom comes through drive-thru with Mike and his mom, I cry. I go out back and hang out with Alex who is sitting on a rock really upset. We walk up to this waterfall and meet up with Colby, my old friend Adara from high school, and two other guys I don't know, and we just sit there, we never go back to work.
3) I'm walking up the street, everything was really bright, I got into a random car, and there was a kid driving, probably 12 or so years old. He was weaving in and out of cars, we were both freaking out. We end up in this huge parking garage next to this kid's school, and I walk away and go to the beach, where I meet up with Colby who is messing around in the water just being silly. I end up competing with these two girls about catching crabs, starfish, things of that nature... and then I catch a seahorse and win.
4) Colby and I are at an amusement part, and we run into this other couple I guess we knew from somewhere, and we end up all just hanging out the whole day... the end of the dream is naughty, so no more details.
There were more dreams... and a lot more detail... I'm not in the mood to deal with any of it.
Have a great day.
J
I my dreams consisted of the following:
1) A large volcano, dragons, prisoners in shackles and cages, torture, lava, and a demon lord who wanted to make me his queen after witnessing how I cared for his dragons, despite being a prisoner.
2) McDonalds turned into a luau restaurant on the beach, walls were made out of reeds and all that, sand floor, and I ended up being an hour late. Running around, like a normal day, hitting on Emily who was wearing a red bikini, my mom comes through drive-thru with Mike and his mom, I cry. I go out back and hang out with Alex who is sitting on a rock really upset. We walk up to this waterfall and meet up with Colby, my old friend Adara from high school, and two other guys I don't know, and we just sit there, we never go back to work.
3) I'm walking up the street, everything was really bright, I got into a random car, and there was a kid driving, probably 12 or so years old. He was weaving in and out of cars, we were both freaking out. We end up in this huge parking garage next to this kid's school, and I walk away and go to the beach, where I meet up with Colby who is messing around in the water just being silly. I end up competing with these two girls about catching crabs, starfish, things of that nature... and then I catch a seahorse and win.
4) Colby and I are at an amusement part, and we run into this other couple I guess we knew from somewhere, and we end up all just hanging out the whole day... the end of the dream is naughty, so no more details.
There were more dreams... and a lot more detail... I'm not in the mood to deal with any of it.
Have a great day.
J
January 21, 2010
Omegle.
Chatting with random strangers, sometimes leads to something nice.
I may never talk to him again, but this guy from the UK was really awesome to talk to. Many hours, many words, lots of fun.
Stranger: cool, I think I'll watch some Big Bang Theory after talking to you
You: Wee, glad I could spread the love
Stranger: yeah nice one!
Stranger: I dont have a TV but I can watch online
You: That works =]
Stranger: yay!
You: You know what always makes me sad about closing Omegle?
You: sometimes you meet really cool people, but you will never be able to find them again
You: And finding them on Facebook/Myspace/Twitter or whatever kind of loses meaning
You: =P
Stranger: yeah I know exactly what you mean
Stranger: its really kinda sad
You: It is... but its nice to talk to nice people in the world
Stranger: yeah thats true, but when you think about it, isnt it kind of pointless?
You: Pointless? o.o
Stranger: dont get me wrong I like meeting nice people like yourself, but I'm not gonna talk to you again
You: Ooh yeah I know what you mean
You: BUT its a good way to pass time, right? =P
You: I mean sure you could have been cybering and trading nudes with some cute girl from australia or germany
You: But you met someone awesome like me! =D
Stranger: thats right! You're ultra mega awesome!
You: WOW that's a lot of awesome!
You: You're not so bad yourself =]]
Stranger: I already knew that
Stranger: I love myself too much
You: Haha, thats not such a bad quality to have
You: Much better than hating yourself!
Stranger: I also hate myself, I have crazy mood swings
You: Me too... but I'm also female
You: =P
Stranger: sexist!
Stranger: against yourself
You: BUT true!
Stranger: I am so offended...
Stranger: jk
You: did I offend your glirious vagina? o.O
Stranger: yeah you did
You: =[[ Sorrryyyy
Stranger: haha its ok
You: =D
Thank you Omegle!
J
I may never talk to him again, but this guy from the UK was really awesome to talk to. Many hours, many words, lots of fun.
Stranger: cool, I think I'll watch some Big Bang Theory after talking to you
You: Wee, glad I could spread the love
Stranger: yeah nice one!
Stranger: I dont have a TV but I can watch online
You: That works =]
Stranger: yay!
You: You know what always makes me sad about closing Omegle?
You: sometimes you meet really cool people, but you will never be able to find them again
You: And finding them on Facebook/Myspace/Twitter or whatever kind of loses meaning
You: =P
Stranger: yeah I know exactly what you mean
Stranger: its really kinda sad
You: It is... but its nice to talk to nice people in the world
Stranger: yeah thats true, but when you think about it, isnt it kind of pointless?
You: Pointless? o.o
Stranger: dont get me wrong I like meeting nice people like yourself, but I'm not gonna talk to you again
You: Ooh yeah I know what you mean
You: BUT its a good way to pass time, right? =P
You: I mean sure you could have been cybering and trading nudes with some cute girl from australia or germany
You: But you met someone awesome like me! =D
Stranger: thats right! You're ultra mega awesome!
You: WOW that's a lot of awesome!
You: You're not so bad yourself =]]
Stranger: I already knew that
Stranger: I love myself too much
You: Haha, thats not such a bad quality to have
You: Much better than hating yourself!
Stranger: I also hate myself, I have crazy mood swings
You: Me too... but I'm also female
You: =P
Stranger: sexist!
Stranger: against yourself
You: BUT true!
Stranger: I am so offended...
Stranger: jk
You: did I offend your glirious vagina? o.O
Stranger: yeah you did
You: =[[ Sorrryyyy
Stranger: haha its ok
You: =D
Thank you Omegle!
J
January 20, 2010
What?
I don't know what to say, things are pretty fast paced right now.
HUGE inspection tomorrow and Friday, I'm working crappy hours and it will be crazy stressful and hectic. We've been preparing and cleaning and reviewing and teaching and all that stuff, getting ready for this stupid thing.
Colby and I are looking for a new apartment still, but I now have three solid choices to choose from, and I'm getting excited. Tyler is going to move in with us in less than a month, and he's going to leave all the crazy bullshit behind him. He kissed some girl tonight, he was hanging out with a bunch of girls, all crazy about him, and now there's all this drama. He's cool though, not letting it bother him, I'm proud of him.
Payday tomorrow, crazy happy about that, its gunna be a BIG check, I've been working insane hours and even doing overtime. Blowing off rent and bogus utility bills, we're just going to leave. We don't legally owe this bitch anything, and she should be happy we don't have her arrested.
BUT it is time to go to bed.
Early work hours.
New CSI now.
Shower.
J
HUGE inspection tomorrow and Friday, I'm working crappy hours and it will be crazy stressful and hectic. We've been preparing and cleaning and reviewing and teaching and all that stuff, getting ready for this stupid thing.
Colby and I are looking for a new apartment still, but I now have three solid choices to choose from, and I'm getting excited. Tyler is going to move in with us in less than a month, and he's going to leave all the crazy bullshit behind him. He kissed some girl tonight, he was hanging out with a bunch of girls, all crazy about him, and now there's all this drama. He's cool though, not letting it bother him, I'm proud of him.
Payday tomorrow, crazy happy about that, its gunna be a BIG check, I've been working insane hours and even doing overtime. Blowing off rent and bogus utility bills, we're just going to leave. We don't legally owe this bitch anything, and she should be happy we don't have her arrested.
BUT it is time to go to bed.
Early work hours.
New CSI now.
Shower.
J
January 18, 2010
French. Very French.
I'm French. Hardcore French to the bone. I am the descendant of Samuel de Champlain, the man who founded Montreal, it is true. I'm proud of my heritage, even if it isn't anything exotic and special.
My grandmother's side of the family (as in my mom's mom) is predominantly French. My mother's father's side is VERY Irish. He once had a bright orange afro, I have pictures somewhere, it is fantastic.
My dad's side is 100% French. I'm about... I don't know, 65-70% French. I'm also Irish, English, Indian, and a little big of something else no one knows about.
Here are some pictures from my last family reunion from 2000. Maybe 2001?
Lafrance Family:
Descendants of:
Hilaire Cartier dit Lafrance & Marie Laurendeau
Married 13 July 1896
Ste Anne, Danville, Québec
Simonne Lafrance & Euclide Côté
13 May 1939
Sanford, Maine
I am the youngest descendant of the Simonne family. This my mother, my great aunt Priscilla, and myself. I was maybe 10 when this picture was taken.
First cousins, my great aunt Priscilla is the woman in the wheel chair.
Second cousins... my aunts and uncles. My mom is fifth from the right.
A good chunk of my cousins on my mother's side of the family... can you find me?
There are two fourth cousins in this picture too, two little babies.
This is where I come from.
Haha... goodnight.
J
My grandmother's side of the family (as in my mom's mom) is predominantly French. My mother's father's side is VERY Irish. He once had a bright orange afro, I have pictures somewhere, it is fantastic.
My dad's side is 100% French. I'm about... I don't know, 65-70% French. I'm also Irish, English, Indian, and a little big of something else no one knows about.
Here are some pictures from my last family reunion from 2000. Maybe 2001?
Lafrance Family:
Descendants of:
Hilaire Cartier dit Lafrance & Marie Laurendeau
Married 13 July 1896
Ste Anne, Danville, Québec
Simonne Lafrance & Euclide Côté
13 May 1939
Sanford, Maine
I am the youngest descendant of the Simonne family. This my mother, my great aunt Priscilla, and myself. I was maybe 10 when this picture was taken.
First cousins, my great aunt Priscilla is the woman in the wheel chair.
Second cousins... my aunts and uncles. My mom is fifth from the right.
A good chunk of my cousins on my mother's side of the family... can you find me?
There are two fourth cousins in this picture too, two little babies.
This is where I come from.
Haha... goodnight.
J
Subscribe to:
Posts (Atom)