No Sleep. Again.

Fell asleep around 3.
Woke up whenever Colby came to bed (5? or 6?).
Stayed awake for a while.
Woke up at 7:30 with a knee in my side, an elbow in my neck, my head and my left leg off the bed, and my back in searing pain.

Guess I'll just sleep on the couch for the rest of my life?

Ugh... to the couch!

Basically.

I'm done with pathetic high school drama.
I'm not going to attempt to be friends with people I don't want to be friends with, but because someone I thought I was close to asks me.
You aren't worth my time or my respect, and that's that.
Its sad that I had to lose someone in all of this, but apparently we weren't that close to begin with, or he wouldn't had spread lies and garbage about me.

I'm 21.
Not 16.
I don't need to take this crap.
Changing all my privacy settings, deleting some people, and moving on with my life.
Again. Like some people apparently can't.

Oh well, it happens.

J

Lawl, U Mad Brah?!

I play WoW way too much.
I've wasted so much time, energy, and money on this game.
It has allowed me to meet some of the most amazing people this world has to offer, and has given me an escape from the pain that the real world can bring.

But what have I gotten out of it?
I've become more bitter, and have a shorter fuse.
I now believe that there really are very few good people in this world.
The rest of them are malicious... and just plain moronic.

I'm turning into a troll, and I love it.
Its really a love/hate thing.
I have started taking pleasure in the fact that I can successfully mentally abuse people who piss me off... gives me an adrenaline rush.

I would never do that to people I care about.
These brats I come across aren't worth caring about.
Players aren't even human anymore, they are just machines.
Machines who can't spell or think logically.

There are so many people who shouldn't be breeding in this world.

Blah.

J

Sleepless.

Every time I go to sleep, its like I'm entering a Mortal Kombat game. Elbow, elbow, knee, kick, knee, knee, elbow, kick... FINISH HER!

My boyfriend can be incredibly inconsiderate.
I like to go to bed any time between 10:30pm and 2:00am, and he's the same way. When we both worked at McDonalds, we went to bed at the same time every night.

Even when he was still working and needed to go to bed early, I would drop whatever I was doing and go to bed too, because I didn't want to wake him up with music or noise, and because I knew that I'd wake him up when I went to bed later.

But now that he's jobless and I'm not, he likes to stay up until 6:00am EVERY day, talking in vent, play WoW, and just being annoyingly loud, despite my protests. Its bad enough I have to sleep alone while all theses other people get to be with him (we see each other barely as it is anymore), but then he keeps me up by being loud.

AND when he finally comes yo bed at 6:00 in the fucking morning, he practically belly flops into bed. If I wasn't already awake by him stomping around the house, this surely does the trick. And he always seems to want to TALK once he sees I'm awake.

And then the games begin!
He falls asleep instantly, and I'm not uncomfortable, or hot, or something.
Kick, knee, knee, elbow, shove, kick, knee... you get the picture.
All him. Taking up 80% of the bed.
He's pushed me off a dozen times too.

And of course, not wanting to disturb him, I either trudge out to the couch, defeated... or just go to the other end of the bed.

And for some reason, that makes HIM angry?

I don't know what to do anymore... I just want to get some damn SLEEP!

Ugh.

Is It A Curse?

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